heartprints

dis al meer as ‘n maand dat ek terug is
en steeds steek die woorde vas in my keel
as ek dink aan my camino
oorweldig die emosies my
ek kon dit vandag darem regkry
om die fotos af te laai
en al waarvoor ek nou kans sien
is die evidence
ek was daar
die camino
lê
nou
agter
my

there are decades
when nothing happens
and then
there are weeks
where decades happen

Ek dink ek het ‘n fout gemaak om te wag dat my binneste homself uitsorteer. Dit is juis in die reflection, die onthou en om te kyk na die fotos wat dinge in my binnekant begin loswikkel het.

Ek het geweet dat ek nie gaan loop om van ou bagasie ontslae te raak nie, ook nie om seer of pyn te verwerk nie. Ek het gaan loop om iets te ontvang.  En ek weet nie presies wat ek verwag het nie, maar dit was asof ek ‘n klein stukkie van myself gevind het.  Ek het sekerheid gekry oor ‘n onvervulde behoefte.  Maar dis ‘n gesprek vir ‘n ander dag.

Ek dink dis goed om net te erken ek was daar.

En gewoonlik wanneer ek nog nie die guts het om te praat nie, laat ek ander mense namens my praat.

So, hier is ek – omring deur ander mense se woorde – wat tussen die lyne my eie hart oopskroef.

as long as
our hearts
are paper
and our hands
are ink
there will
be
poetry
~ cloe frayne ~

she woke up
every morning
with the option of
being anyone she wished
how beautiful it was
that she always chose
herself
~ tyler kent white ~

this is what i like about photographs
they are proof, that once,
even if just for a heartbeat
everything was perfect
~ jodi picoult~

life becomes more meaningful
when you realize
the simple fact
that you’ll
never
get
the same moment
twice

everything gets
uncomfortable
when it’s time
to change
that’s just
a part of the
growth
process
things will
get
better
be
patient

i don’t pay attention
to the world ending
it has ended for me
many times
and
began
again
in
the
morning

run your fingers through my soul
for once, just once
feel exactly what i feel,
believe what i believe,
perceive as i perceive
look
experience
examine
and for once,
just once,
understand

to make the right choices in life
you have to get in touch with your soul
to do this
you need to experience solitude
which most people are afraid of,
because in the silence you hear the truth
and know the solutions
~ deepak chopra ~

 

i wanted to ask,
‘in what isle did you find your serenity,
do you know how to be married for fifty years,
or how to live alone
excuse me for interrupting
but you seem to possess
some knowledge that makes
the earth burn and turn on it’s axis’
but we don’t request such things from strangers nowadays
so i said, ‘i love your hair’

 

the ones who notice
the storms in your eyes
the silence
in your voice
and
the heaviness in your heart
are
the
ones
you
need
to
let
in

 

 

i wish that photographs were physical spaces
like tunnels
that you could crawl inside them
and
go
back

 

 

 

be vulnerable
let yourself be deeply seen
love with your whole heart
practice gratitude and joy
be able to say
‘i am thankful to feel this vulnerable
because it means i am alive’
~ brené brown ~

pay attention to the gentle ones,
the ones that can hold your gaze with no discomfort
the ones who smile to themselves while sitting alone in a coffee shop
the ones who walk as if floating
take them in and marvel at them
simply marvel
it takes an extraordinary person to carry themselves
as if they are not suffering
~ d bunyavong ~

 

we are all just a car crash,
a diagnosis
an unexpected phone call
a newfound love
or a broken heart away
from
becoming a
completely
different
person

how beautifully fragile
are we
that so many things
can take but a moment
to alter
who
we are
forever
~ samuel decker thompson~

be not
ashamed
of the
wars
your soul
has fought
to save
itself
~ isra il-thibeh ~

 

people too often forget that it is your own choice how you want to spend the rest of your life
~ rachel wolchin ~

the trail is the thing,
not the end of the trail
travel too fast
and you miss
all that you are traveling
for
~ louis l’amour ~

regrets…

ek wens ek het stadiger geloop
die lug dieper in my longe ingetrek
soms ‘n bietjie langer gesit
ek wens ek het my tyd beter benut
dat ek die koor in die katedraal kon hoor sing
en
dat
ek
die
botafumeiro
kon
sien
swaai

Ek sal omsigtig loop deur my hart en die memories een-vir-een omkeer.  En so sal ek my antwoorde vind en vrede maak, my spreekwoordelike klippe neersit en myself met ope arms huis toe nooi.